Im sorry if this rambles a bit, im a frustrated wreck right now. I have a thoroughbred mare and i live in a rural area, its over an hour to get to a vet office, and i do not have a trailer. My parents bought me this horse when i was younger and now that im out on my own with a good job ive been trying to save money to have a truck and trailer. I got the truck but life took unexpected turns and i could not buy a trailer. My horse has been having issues with her hind end in the canter since last summer. She has been off work since the start of the year. She is a maiden mare, in march her teats swelled right up along with the sides of her flank/belly area. I cannot touch her here at all. We thougt edema from being in a smaller pen. Butte and turnout did nothing and its still here. (Vet recommended this on the phone) I had a very bad farrier after my previous one retired and he ruined her already bad feet. she has a club foot and now rotated coffin bone. She had horrible abscesses and constant bruising that wont go away. She will not toletate having shoes put on. Its also not comfortable for her to hold her back legs up to have her feet trimmed. I now have a great farrier (he just moved here) but he doesnt want to trim her without xrays to see how bad it is. So quite a few issues going on, and ive tried called vets but they all say i need to get her to their office but i cant. I even bought a trailer so i could but it was in way worse condition that i thought and i lost a ton of money on it and now cant buy another for a while. This horse is alright in the pasture but not sound and not completely comfortble. She still runs around but she is definitely off and the swelling affects her gait. Im so frusted because i feel like i failed her. My boarding facility is closing so im scrambling to get a paddock set up at my parents house (no other suitable boarding places here) and buy hay. Just so many things going wrong. I dont know what to do at this point. I have one person i can borrow a trailer from but its broken. Im sorry i needed to vent because im so frustrated and upset over this. Hopefully someone has some advice.