So I am on the waiting list to send Calypso to the trainer, she is getting her coggins etc this month, things are moving onwards and upwards! And I am no longer sure I am doing the right thing. She's 17. Has had a rough life. Maybe it IS better to just let her be a pasture puff and then if something happens to me, shoot and bury her on the farm. Maybe that is the fair and kind thing to do. Sending her away will stress her out. Relearning how to be a riding horse will stress her out. Hasn't she earned a quiet, stress-free life? Hasn't she earned a retirement? On the other hand. . .' She has so, so much to give. So much patience, so much kindness. She loves kids, has never ever taken advantage of my inexperience, or gotten frustrated with me. She is just a Good Horse, all the way around. She would make the perfect horse to pack my (eventual) kids around, and I know she would treat them well. She loves life, loves to be spoiled. I can't bear the thought of her being is a position where if something happened her ONLY option was to be pts as a healthy, vibrant horse. So while I still feel that getting her going under saddle IS in her best interest, it just doesn't FEEL like it is her best interests, and I am struggling with that. Above all, I want her to be happy. This will stress her out. *sigh* Any words of wisdom? Am I actually doing the right thing, or am I being selfish?