When I was a little girl I had a best friend for a horse. Sweet memories!!! I had horses off and on up until high school then finally got a horse when I was in my 30's. With this horse 20 years ago I had an injury with a horse. It wasn't life threatening but it was enough to scare me pretty bad and to see my horse and never touch another one until last year. My horse rared on me and broke several teeth. Anyway -- thats the story with him. Then last year I decided to get back into this horse thing again. In the beginning my stomach was in my throat and I would get butterflies was even around horses. I forced myself to face my fears. I love it!!! I bought a fully broke/trained horse last January. In June I broke my leg pretty badly-- non horse injury but I have 21 screws in my leg and a plate. My poor horse was in a stall from June to September with occasional turn outs. Needless to say by September she was wired and had a ton of pent up energy. When I finally could walk I would take her to the round pen and let her get out some of her energy. I finally started riding her again in December. Some days she can be so sweet and practically fall asleep while I'm grooming her or like today While getting ready to saddle her she would pin her ears back and act like she was going to bite me. I also was cleaning her hooves and she dropped down to her knees. That scared me! I couldn't believe she just did that!!! I just rode her last week and it was wonderful! I couldn't wait to ride her again today but instead I just put her back in the stall. Tomorrow I will try it again. I want my confidence back so bad but there are do many times I feel like Im going backward. She is an 11 year old Arab/paint mare. In my head I think I need to be around my horse as much as I can and the confidence will come back but the thing I seem to always go to is "I need to sell her". I know that is a move I would regret forever! There is no way I would ever be able to replace the quality of a horse that she is. I guess I am asking for advice/encouragement on this issue. Thank you in advance!!!