Ranting... Stressing over bills right now, and my family is definitely not helping. For Christmas, we do a secret Santa type gift exchange, and we were all talking about the price limit. I expressed the fact that my budget is pretty tight right now, and I wouldn't be able to allot more than $40 or so per gift (so around $80 total, since i have to buy a gift for one person on each side of the family) Then one of my extended family members got ****ed because they said i was trying to cheap out on gifts, when "They knew i had the money, i just don't want to spend it on anything other than my stupid animal". I have the chiropractor, the dentist and the farrier all coming out in a week and a half span, exactly two weeks before Christmas. And i have been saving for MONTHS to make it happen. It just happened to all fall in line now. My horse has earned it, and desperately needs it. I am so sick of my extended family putting down everything i do for myself and my horse. It just makes me so angry. I am 19 years old, working TWO jobs. I pay my own bills (my insurance, my phone etc) AND i help my parents out with everything i can (I still live at home) be it groceries, gas money, buying the dog food for the month whatever it is they need. Hell, a couple of times, I've even helped pay utilities when business has been super slow for my dad. I don't mind at all. The extended family thats complaining about the money? Have cushy jobs. Their kids get extra spending money while they are at college, they don't have to worry about paying bills, they don't know how to handle money AT ALL. But I'm the irresponsible one because i cant drop $120 on a gift. It ****es me off. Here i am working 10 to 12 hour days to make ends meet, Im trying to do whats best for me AND for Annie, I'm starting the process for getting my IRD certification AND attempting to save up for a car, and this is what i get to deal with. PLUS, i have to go to the doctor to renew my anxiety and depression medication, and START a sleeping medication because my insomnia has been HORRIBLE for the past several weeks. So it just feels like my whole life is crumbling at the edges, and even though i KNOW i can make it through this, it is so disheartening to be treated like that. I'm doing the best i can, why can't that just be good enough?